On any given day you'll find me gone

What up homies! Back in Amurrica, y'all! I mean, I've been back for two days now, but it took a while to sink in...

Leaving was weird. I went to visit the boy's family, so I was gone over the weekend when most people left, meaning I never got to see them. I came back Sunday night to a nearly empty dorm. It's strange, because none of these people was a necessarily close friend, but they were people with whom I associated on a daily basis, and I had gotten very accustomed to their presence; so, it's strange to think that I'll most likely never see any of them again.

The boy's family was very lovely. When I met his mother she looked a bit teary and went "oh, Michael, she's just lovely!" very sincerely. (Sidenote: what is it with me and dudes named Mike? It's starting to freak me out.) It's still weird though, because it was like the family-meeting thing was simultaneously a next-step-in-the-relationship kinda gig and a final nice-knowing-you-here's-what-could-have-been thing. When I left he kept insisting that it was not the last time we'd see eachother and we'd stay in touch and blah blah blah, but I know from (recent) past experience that that won't work. Oh well. He was nice, though.

It feels so unnatural to think that I won't be back in school in the Spring. I guess there's still abou a 2% chance that I'll be back, but that is entirely dependent on the financial aid I get, and this time I'm not going to make my family struggle to find the money (plus I just spent literally ALL of the remainder of my education fund on Westminster). Basically, I'm only going back if they give me A LOT of money, and I know that is extremely unlikely. Thank god I got my summer job back.

Never fear, though, friends; I am already planning when I can come up and visit y'all. I mean, I have to work a few weeks/months first and re-earn some money, but I want to come up as sson as possible. I miss everybody like crazy! I miss the area, too. I'm not too bothered about the whole going to school bit, but I just mmiss the Hampshire routine, I guess. I'd like to get it back just for a few days, at least.

All I really want in life is the means to bounce back and forth between all the people I love, without worrying about so much goddamn money. I don't think I ever really need to stay in one place for too long, as long as I know I can come and go from anywhere as I please. Why can't I just be a nomad? Or a professional couchsurfer? Or, like, on the run from the law?

Whatevs. It's drinking time.