I'm so tired of being unhappy. I'm tired of trying to pretend I am happy so I don't annoy everyone with how not happy I am. I'm tired of being tense, of feeling uncomfortable, of feeling dissatisfied and disappointed, with myself, with everything around me. I'm tired of apologizing for how I feel. I'm tired of being too sensitive, of doubting everything, of being too hard on myself. I'm tired of getting so frustrated that all I can think to do is write lame blog posts. I'm tired of being tired.
I'm trying. I'm making an effort to feel better. Shouldn't that be enough?
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buddy, sometimes trying *isn't* enough, and that is the most frustrating thing of all. I know that no matter how hard i try, i don't usually feel better on my own. I don't know if you're seeing someone, but it might be helpful as far as just figuring out why you're feeling the way you are and how to begin moving past it -- for you, not for other people to feel better about you.
ReplyDeletei hope you're ok in at least some sense of the word.
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Thanks. I'm trying to find someone, but I'm having a hard time tracking anyone down who works with my schedule. I know I really need to be talking to someone, though.
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